"Hey you are a good guy, you aren't supposed to do these things."
Just how many times do these seemingly worthless line start some chemical reaction which results in a nerve signal being transmitted across your mind, that you won't be doing these things. I know there are pertty few people who would publicly acknowledge to be a part of this Good Guys Club, but deep within every soul there is a desire to be a good guy, just to be good, simple as that. It just matters how much you are instigated by the satanic sentence preceding this paragraph, that makes you and me the good guy. It would have been so simple if we weren't at all perturbed by this thought. But alas !!
Guess writing above lines do qualify me to be one of the good guy i am talking about, so I should be a part of the Good Guys Club, but believe me that's not the case :) I tend to be the most rotten, the most filthiest human being with the least emotions troubling me...huh, who am I trying to fool? Wish I were like that, sab aasan hota tab, magar woh ho naa saka...
Neways,
Bye for now,
Rahul
jo ab kisi kaa na raha
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
Saturday, February 18, 2006
For my love
kabhi chaha ki keh dun
ki ab tumse mohabbat nahin
kabhi socha ki keh dun
ki dil mein ab tumhari jagah nahin
kabhi socha....
magar kaise nikal dun tumhe dil se
jab dil tumhara hi hai
kaise bhul jaun tumhe
jab har yaad tumhari hi hai
kaise keh paun tumhe ki
tumse gham-e-judai sahi nahi jaati
kaise keh dun tumhe ki
dil ke har dhadkan mein tum hi basi hui
kaise keh dun tumhe ki
tumse mohabbat khatm ki nahin jaati
jitna tumhe bhulana chaha
aur tumhari yaad aayi
jab kabhi aankhen band ki
tumhara chehra saamne aaya
jab kabhi honth hile
tumhara hi naam juban per aaya
jab kabhi kuch kehna chaha
I love you tumse kehna chaha...
-Rahul
ki ab tumse mohabbat nahin
kabhi socha ki keh dun
ki dil mein ab tumhari jagah nahin
kabhi socha....
magar kaise nikal dun tumhe dil se
jab dil tumhara hi hai
kaise bhul jaun tumhe
jab har yaad tumhari hi hai
kaise keh paun tumhe ki
tumse gham-e-judai sahi nahi jaati
kaise keh dun tumhe ki
dil ke har dhadkan mein tum hi basi hui
kaise keh dun tumhe ki
tumse mohabbat khatm ki nahin jaati
jitna tumhe bhulana chaha
aur tumhari yaad aayi
jab kabhi aankhen band ki
tumhara chehra saamne aaya
jab kabhi honth hile
tumhara hi naam juban per aaya
jab kabhi kuch kehna chaha
I love you tumse kehna chaha...
-Rahul
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
Khamoshi
Finally saw Khamosh Pani. Don't know why I had not watched this movie earlier, but anyway, as the popular saying goes der aaye durust aaye. I have to admit it's one of the good movie I saw this week, but the best this week has been Rang De Basanti :)
While watching this movie I was totally taken aback how the religious fanatics change a simple peace loving individual to an aggressor, an extremist. These kind of movies deliver the ideas on the evil propagated in the name of religion, and so should help in keeping the extremists at bay, but sadly it doesn't, and that too on both sides of the border dividing the Indian subcontinent. We all are peace loving individuals, but there have to be some organisation propagating hatred. Is it so hard to counter them ? Sadly again, yes is the answer to this question. How otherwise could anyone explain these terror organisations prospering and growing their headcount exponentially through the ages. I just don't get it, how hard is it to love, and how easy is it to hate.
This makes me wonder, how religious are we really ? Because if we are truly religious then we should understand that each religion preaches peace, not hatred. But we seem hell bent to not learn this basic idealogy while being religious.
Let me again wonder and ask myself, am I religious ? Well if believing in God is being religious then for sure I am religious. Again, is believing in God enough to qualify yourself as being religious, shouldn't one be reading the holy books and go to the temple to worship to be called a religious person. :) Don't have any idea what crap I am writing. I believe these things do happen when the mid sems end.
So signing off now, from B314/1, IIT Kanpur,
Rahul Sinha
While watching this movie I was totally taken aback how the religious fanatics change a simple peace loving individual to an aggressor, an extremist. These kind of movies deliver the ideas on the evil propagated in the name of religion, and so should help in keeping the extremists at bay, but sadly it doesn't, and that too on both sides of the border dividing the Indian subcontinent. We all are peace loving individuals, but there have to be some organisation propagating hatred. Is it so hard to counter them ? Sadly again, yes is the answer to this question. How otherwise could anyone explain these terror organisations prospering and growing their headcount exponentially through the ages. I just don't get it, how hard is it to love, and how easy is it to hate.
This makes me wonder, how religious are we really ? Because if we are truly religious then we should understand that each religion preaches peace, not hatred. But we seem hell bent to not learn this basic idealogy while being religious.
Let me again wonder and ask myself, am I religious ? Well if believing in God is being religious then for sure I am religious. Again, is believing in God enough to qualify yourself as being religious, shouldn't one be reading the holy books and go to the temple to worship to be called a religious person. :) Don't have any idea what crap I am writing. I believe these things do happen when the mid sems end.
So signing off now, from B314/1, IIT Kanpur,
Rahul Sinha
Thursday, January 26, 2006
Solitary Musings
There's always something going on with life...if it's not then for sure you are dead pal. I have things going on with my life, and whenever I am in those high speed lanes, I tend to come to a Chauraha and there I wish to get to each of the roads and explore the possibility over there...but I know that once I choose my path, I won't have the options available with me, and I might not ever find out what lay ahead in the roads I left out. All these roads show some promise and have big hoardings trying to lure me into them. It's the same cut-throat advertising campaign which they have started for selling every product, over here the product is career path or I should be more precise in terming it as a life path and the price for each is my soul. I know I have to cave in with the pressing demands which I myself demand of myself, but what would I achieve if I chose something which I believe would be good for me now turns out to be a damp squib. Would I be able to retrace my path, and choose the roads which I had looked down upon earlier ?
Let me blurt out a few things about my paths. There's one making everyone happy except me(but I might start liking it after a while, one can't be damp with all the sunshine around themselves, can they?). Then there's one which would make me happy, but I am not sure whether it would keep me happy all the time. Then there's a time tested path, which would make a few happy, few sad and as for me I realy don't know how I would be while treading that path. The last one would certainly kill 2 things in my life, which I know are pretty dear to me. The 1st and 2nd would kill one a piece. Can't I have both of the things ? Why should I be choosing ? Alas...that's not the right question, as I know that with everyone there comes a time when he has to choose, take his decisions, the decisions which would shape his life, and I am on that crossroad and the time here is running out for me to announce my chosen path. I knew this would be difficult, but as I have always been all these years, I kept on believing that I would do the right things at the right moment. May be the time to choose isn't here right now, but for sure it is in striking distance. So the question which I should be asking is What do I want ? Coz I is the one which should matter to each individual the most. Should I be selfish and take a step which would upset everyone else, even though I don't want to cause pain to anyone. Or should I play safe, and be the mean guy which I am not ? Or should I just walk where there's no reason to fear and not take care of everyone else's feeling, not even mine ?
Life used to be simple....I complicated it.
Rahul
Let me blurt out a few things about my paths. There's one making everyone happy except me(but I might start liking it after a while, one can't be damp with all the sunshine around themselves, can they?). Then there's one which would make me happy, but I am not sure whether it would keep me happy all the time. Then there's a time tested path, which would make a few happy, few sad and as for me I realy don't know how I would be while treading that path. The last one would certainly kill 2 things in my life, which I know are pretty dear to me. The 1st and 2nd would kill one a piece. Can't I have both of the things ? Why should I be choosing ? Alas...that's not the right question, as I know that with everyone there comes a time when he has to choose, take his decisions, the decisions which would shape his life, and I am on that crossroad and the time here is running out for me to announce my chosen path. I knew this would be difficult, but as I have always been all these years, I kept on believing that I would do the right things at the right moment. May be the time to choose isn't here right now, but for sure it is in striking distance. So the question which I should be asking is What do I want ? Coz I is the one which should matter to each individual the most. Should I be selfish and take a step which would upset everyone else, even though I don't want to cause pain to anyone. Or should I play safe, and be the mean guy which I am not ? Or should I just walk where there's no reason to fear and not take care of everyone else's feeling, not even mine ?
Life used to be simple....I complicated it.
Rahul
Saturday, March 12, 2005
The bright Sunny Days
The Sun's out shining, the weather is fine and above all mid sems just went by [came to an end yesterday only]. I am not going to talk about the mid sems as it's always been the same story repeated in each exams, thought this mid sems have given me a *Lakshya* to do well in the end sems to save my sorry arse this semester. Have been watching loads of TV and serials lately. Well u can't blame it on me for watching TV as with due respect for ppl who don't know, we had a Test match between India and Pak running on. It's sad that India didn't apply the right gears at the right time to put the match on their sides. Though by and all it was a nice contest and it really gr8 to watch Balaji getting those wickets.
U know what is the 3rd most addictive thing at IITK is behind Sutta and LAN Games, the TV serials. Ppl do get mad watching one episode after another till they complete the series. I just don't understand these are the same ppl who would always curse the idiotbox at their homes for showing the idiotic Family dramas, but would gladly accept the dramas of the serials like Smallville, The OC and Malcolm in the middle to name a few. It's all contains the same kind of shit, of a troubled youngster. It's not the right place to say but I must inform you all that I too fall in this category of ppl debating for long hours about how idiotic the ppl are to watch the Saas- Bahu drama and who later slip in their rooms to watch the likes of Smallville and OC. Well I started watching Oc just a couple of days earlier and am watching it fast to complete its two seasons available on LAN [did ya smell the level of addiction]. Well it's life and we know that *Life as we know it* [or LAWKI] isn't coming back b4 a good 3 months and *Smallville* has to wait for 12th April to get a fresh episode. But luckily, I have almost whole 2nd season of OC left and totally untoched 24 left for my valuable time :))
So gtg now another episode knocking up the queue.
~R.@.SiN
U know what is the 3rd most addictive thing at IITK is behind Sutta and LAN Games, the TV serials. Ppl do get mad watching one episode after another till they complete the series. I just don't understand these are the same ppl who would always curse the idiotbox at their homes for showing the idiotic Family dramas, but would gladly accept the dramas of the serials like Smallville, The OC and Malcolm in the middle to name a few. It's all contains the same kind of shit, of a troubled youngster. It's not the right place to say but I must inform you all that I too fall in this category of ppl debating for long hours about how idiotic the ppl are to watch the Saas- Bahu drama and who later slip in their rooms to watch the likes of Smallville and OC. Well I started watching Oc just a couple of days earlier and am watching it fast to complete its two seasons available on LAN [did ya smell the level of addiction]. Well it's life and we know that *Life as we know it* [or LAWKI] isn't coming back b4 a good 3 months and *Smallville* has to wait for 12th April to get a fresh episode. But luckily, I have almost whole 2nd season of OC left and totally untoched 24 left for my valuable time :))
So gtg now another episode knocking up the queue.
~R.@.SiN
Wednesday, July 07, 2004
It's Time
It's time to take out the famous sword of the King of Gondor, to be given to the heir to the throne of Gondor, as the greatest Sinner Rasin is going back home Yippie !! Yes junta just a few more days to go back home. I am a lot excited abt that and when I am telling u that I am excited, I am EXCITED. Man it's been time since I went Home and this long interval has made me nostalgic. I'll be meeting some frnds there, though most will be unavailable coz their colleges will be open by that time. Uh..oh I feel I am not going to enjoy much at home, though I will do the talking abt home when I come from there.
Anyways so the things happening over here. First of all I got a Fine of Rs. 1000/-. Whao that's a large sum of money and I had to muster a lot of heart to pay that fine. U need to have ur cheque bounced to get that sort of fine. Well I hadn't been planning to get my cheque bounced but I didn't take care of my money in my acct. and so the balance went down and Voila, u get the fine, even though the balance went down after a month from the date of writing that cheque. But u try to explain our DOSA abt that and chances are u will not fare much better than me, in the best case u cud even get more of a fine. Though I must admit I was and am quite depressed abt this incident and so was restraining myself from writing any further blogs after the 1st day as, the fine came on 2nd day itself from me writing the blogs :(
Though there been lot happening in the world since then, like Greece won the Euro Cup [now who wud have thought of that], Spidy 2 got released [getting in more revenues in its 1st weekend than its predecesser], My project got pushed to the next semester [though Prabhat and me more or less completed the job which was given to us], Our Prof. Dr. Sudhir Misra even said good to our effort :O , my comp was infected with Sasser and Donk.Q, and most importantly [again] I got a 1000/- fine. I think I should start looking again to the future and not worry abt what happened in the past days.
Ciao
Rahul
Anyways so the things happening over here. First of all I got a Fine of Rs. 1000/-. Whao that's a large sum of money and I had to muster a lot of heart to pay that fine. U need to have ur cheque bounced to get that sort of fine. Well I hadn't been planning to get my cheque bounced but I didn't take care of my money in my acct. and so the balance went down and Voila, u get the fine, even though the balance went down after a month from the date of writing that cheque. But u try to explain our DOSA abt that and chances are u will not fare much better than me, in the best case u cud even get more of a fine. Though I must admit I was and am quite depressed abt this incident and so was restraining myself from writing any further blogs after the 1st day as, the fine came on 2nd day itself from me writing the blogs :(
Though there been lot happening in the world since then, like Greece won the Euro Cup [now who wud have thought of that], Spidy 2 got released [getting in more revenues in its 1st weekend than its predecesser], My project got pushed to the next semester [though Prabhat and me more or less completed the job which was given to us], Our Prof. Dr. Sudhir Misra even said good to our effort :O , my comp was infected with Sasser and Donk.Q, and most importantly [again] I got a 1000/- fine. I think I should start looking again to the future and not worry abt what happened in the past days.
Ciao
Rahul
Monday, June 28, 2004
1st day being a blogger
It came,
It conquered, and
It went away.
The same story of this summers. I had so many things planned for today and what did I do, NOTHING [ unless u consider eating thrice, writing a few mails, watching some movie and playing some stupid comp games as work ]. I really don't understand what has become of me. I started the day with so many things in my mind to complete but no I being the way I am [ lethargic as hell ] did no much work of use.
The day started with another lunch, which was as always Egg fried Rice. I skipped the tea, was writing to some professor [nice thing there], asking for his help in my project of insurance. It was my 1st mail to a prof of outside Campus, and I kept forgetting what was the format of an e-mail, even cursing myself, why I didn't take my COM 200 course seriously, wud have benifited from it at these places. Though it was easy, it all was actually made up by my roomie Prabhat who had confused me abt the format.
Neways, when it was over Bhatiya and myself went to China Town, a small joint at the campus gate, to entertain our bellies with Chicken. The waiter was such a dumb guy, he brought us a full plate fried chicken, when we had oredered for half a plate only. Then it was the 1st place where I got a gravyless Kali mirch chicken, and it was really kali mirch pasted on chicken pieces. God it was so hot. So no more Kali Mirch chicken at the gate.
Now I am writing what I have been doing what went all day long and I am writing abt how it started and what I did......Hey am I not coming back in a circle :O
Need to sleep soon, if I want to not waste tomorrow.
Ciao
Rahul
It conquered, and
It went away.
The same story of this summers. I had so many things planned for today and what did I do, NOTHING [ unless u consider eating thrice, writing a few mails, watching some movie and playing some stupid comp games as work ]. I really don't understand what has become of me. I started the day with so many things in my mind to complete but no I being the way I am [ lethargic as hell ] did no much work of use.
The day started with another lunch, which was as always Egg fried Rice. I skipped the tea, was writing to some professor [nice thing there], asking for his help in my project of insurance. It was my 1st mail to a prof of outside Campus, and I kept forgetting what was the format of an e-mail, even cursing myself, why I didn't take my COM 200 course seriously, wud have benifited from it at these places. Though it was easy, it all was actually made up by my roomie Prabhat who had confused me abt the format.
Neways, when it was over Bhatiya and myself went to China Town, a small joint at the campus gate, to entertain our bellies with Chicken. The waiter was such a dumb guy, he brought us a full plate fried chicken, when we had oredered for half a plate only. Then it was the 1st place where I got a gravyless Kali mirch chicken, and it was really kali mirch pasted on chicken pieces. God it was so hot. So no more Kali Mirch chicken at the gate.
Now I am writing what I have been doing what went all day long and I am writing abt how it started and what I did......Hey am I not coming back in a circle :O
Need to sleep soon, if I want to not waste tomorrow.
Ciao
Rahul
Happy Blog Day
This being the 1st day of blogging, is like celebrating the birth of a new baby. I'll always remember and celebrate this day every year from now onwards :D.
Neways today has been really uneventful day till now. I have not brushed till now and doing nothing more than sitting in front of the comp. I actually want to leave this bad habit of mine to start the day by checking mails, reading some posts, and then posting some mails. This way the day starts on and u really don't know when the time passes away, like today :)).
Today its going to be a very tedious day, with all sort of work ranging from Project details to mailing the proffesor, to meeting DOSA, asking for something which is totally not constitutional. Will write abt that meeting later.
Signing off as I really need to brush now, my mouth is really stinking at this moment.
Rahul
Neways today has been really uneventful day till now. I have not brushed till now and doing nothing more than sitting in front of the comp. I actually want to leave this bad habit of mine to start the day by checking mails, reading some posts, and then posting some mails. This way the day starts on and u really don't know when the time passes away, like today :)).
Today its going to be a very tedious day, with all sort of work ranging from Project details to mailing the proffesor, to meeting DOSA, asking for something which is totally not constitutional. Will write abt that meeting later.
Signing off as I really need to brush now, my mouth is really stinking at this moment.
Rahul
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