Tanhai

Aaj fir unki yaad aai hai,
Dil mein gum-e-judai hai

Meri aankhon mein paani hai,
Aaj fir idhar barkha aai hai

Meri aankhen tujhe dhoondti hai,
Tune aisi jo aag lagayi hai

Aaj fir teri yaad aai hai,
Aaj fir...mere saath meri tanhai hai

Woh

Woh hain nahin mere saamne,

Fir bhi basi hain meri aankhon mein

Woh hain nahin mere aaghosh mein,

Fir bhi unki khusboo hai meri sanson mein

Woh hain nahin meri sanson mein,

Fir bhi dhadakti hain mere dil mein

Woh hain, aur nahin bhi hain,

Fir bhi hum unhi ke hain.

Dodge this

There are some things which you would like to believe that they might happen in some weird kind of way and so would find itself being a script of a movie. BUT in no case you can believe things to get weirder than what they already are. Ok, I am talking about a movie, incase you are not able to follow me.

I am pretty sure that most of the ardent movie fans would have seen The Graduate, a wonderful Dustin Hoffman movie with the beautiful Katharine Ross. For the lesser mortals, let me give you a quick peek into it's story. It's about a young college graduate who is first seduced by a middle aged lady, and they both have a nice little fling. The fling comes to an end when in comes the daughter of the seductress. Our hero falls in love with her. And that is the story of that great movie. Now what happens if you are trying to cash in on the same story, by taking the story to a new generation, and here I am in no way talking about the same story being told again in the modern era, but I am talking of adding upto the earlier story by introducing a new twist to the story.

So here goes the new story. The daughter also has a fling with the same guy who had a fling with her mother AND her GRANDMOTHER. And this movie is Rumor has it. I might also like to add that in this story both the girl and mother were engaged at the time of their indulgence in adultery with the same person who had had a relationship with their grandmother and mother (I believe that's why they say to marry in a good family :D). It was a horrible terrible experience to watch this shitty movie. I haven't told you the greatest part of the movie as yet. In this movie, both the mother and daughter came to find out that they really loved the people they were engaged with after sleeping with the Family Fucker. To complete the icing on this filthily prepared shit, the engaged people take these whores as their lawfully abided loving wives, even after knowing that they were screwing up their Family Fucker after they were engaged to them. How gay is that ?? Do these people have balls of lithium ? I know it's a film and the movie does sound like a chick flick, but can we not have any self respect for the male community ? After all the producers of the movie should know that there is a 50% probability of males also watching their shit.

Seriously, I could not dodge this. Wonder how the others could have.

Aapke pyar mein

nashe mein dhut hain aapke pyar mein
khwabon mein guum hain aapke pyar mein
apne se duur hain aapke pyar mein
ab to bas jeena hai aapke pyar mein

Sher-o-shayari unplugged

kaante nahin kat te hain lamhe intezaar ke
nazaren jama ke baithe hain rashte pe yaar ke
dil ne kaha dekhe jo jalwe husn yaar ke
laya hai kaun inko falak se uttar ke
(falak = jannat)

Hai mar jawan iss sher pe!!

haal-e-dil byan karne ke hote hain aur bhi raashte
par dil se poocho kaise hote hain yeh fasle
in sheron se byan karte hain dilo ke maamle
aapse mil paayen hum, issi intezar mein jeete hain hum aapke vaaste

The first one's from Hum Aapke Hain Kaun and the 2nd one's my impromptu, so not that great, but hey I am not a shayar as yet, par aapki deewangi mein jaroor ban raha hun.

Rahul

The problems of being a good guy

"Hey you are a good guy, you aren't supposed to do these things."

Just how many times do these seemingly worthless line start some chemical reaction which results in a nerve signal being transmitted across your mind, that you won't be doing these things. I know there are pertty few people who would publicly acknowledge to be a part of this Good Guys Club, but deep within every soul there is a desire to be a good guy, just to be good, simple as that. It just matters how much you are instigated by the satanic sentence preceding this paragraph, that makes you and me the good guy. It would have been so simple if we weren't at all perturbed by this thought. But alas !!

Guess writing above lines do qualify me to be one of the good guy i am talking about, so I should be a part of the Good Guys Club, but believe me that's not the case :) I tend to be the most rotten, the most filthiest human being with the least emotions troubling me...huh, who am I trying to fool? Wish I were like that, sab aasan hota tab, magar woh ho naa saka...
Neways,
Bye for now,
Rahul
jo ab kisi kaa na raha

For my love

kabhi chaha ki keh dun
ki ab tumse mohabbat nahin

kabhi socha ki keh dun
ki dil mein ab tumhari jagah nahin

kabhi socha....

magar kaise nikal dun tumhe dil se
jab dil tumhara hi hai

kaise bhul jaun tumhe
jab har yaad tumhari hi hai

kaise keh paun tumhe ki
tumse gham-e-judai sahi nahi jaati

kaise keh dun tumhe ki
dil ke har dhadkan mein tum hi basi hui

kaise keh dun tumhe ki
tumse mohabbat khatm ki nahin jaati

jitna tumhe bhulana chaha
aur tumhari yaad aayi

jab kabhi aankhen band ki
tumhara chehra saamne aaya

jab kabhi honth hile
tumhara hi naam juban per aaya

jab kabhi kuch kehna chaha
I love you tumse kehna chaha...

-Rahul

Khamoshi

Finally saw Khamosh Pani. Don't know why I had not watched this movie earlier, but anyway, as the popular saying goes der aaye durust aaye. I have to admit it's one of the good movie I saw this week, but the best this week has been Rang De Basanti :)

While watching this movie I was totally taken aback how the religious fanatics change a simple peace loving individual to an aggressor, an extremist. These kind of movies deliver the ideas on the evil propagated in the name of religion, and so should help in keeping the extremists at bay, but sadly it doesn't, and that too on both sides of the border dividing the Indian subcontinent. We all are peace loving individuals, but there have to be some organisation propagating hatred. Is it so hard to counter them ? Sadly again, yes is the answer to this question. How otherwise could anyone explain these terror organisations prospering and growing their headcount exponentially through the ages. I just don't get it, how hard is it to love, and how easy is it to hate.

This makes me wonder, how religious are we really ? Because if we are truly religious then we should understand that each religion preaches peace, not hatred. But we seem hell bent to not learn this basic idealogy while being religious.

Let me again wonder and ask myself, am I religious ? Well if believing in God is being religious then for sure I am religious. Again, is believing in God enough to qualify yourself as being religious, shouldn't one be reading the holy books and go to the temple to worship to be called a religious person. :) Don't have any idea what crap I am writing. I believe these things do happen when the mid sems end.

So signing off now, from B314/1, IIT Kanpur,
Rahul Sinha

Solitary Musings

There's always something going on with life...if it's not then for sure you are dead pal. I have things going on with my life, and whenever I am in those high speed lanes, I tend to come to a Chauraha and there I wish to get to each of the roads and explore the possibility over there...but I know that once I choose my path, I won't have the options available with me, and I might not ever find out what lay ahead in the roads I left out. All these roads show some promise and have big hoardings trying to lure me into them. It's the same cut-throat advertising campaign which they have started for selling every product, over here the product is career path or I should be more precise in terming it as a life path and the price for each is my soul. I know I have to cave in with the pressing demands which I myself demand of myself, but what would I achieve if I chose something which I believe would be good for me now turns out to be a damp squib. Would I be able to retrace my path, and choose the roads which I had looked down upon earlier ?

Let me blurt out a few things about my paths. There's one making everyone happy except me(but I might start liking it after a while, one can't be damp with all the sunshine around themselves, can they?). Then there's one which would make me happy, but I am not sure whether it would keep me happy all the time. Then there's a time tested path, which would make a few happy, few sad and as for me I realy don't know how I would be while treading that path. The last one would certainly kill 2 things in my life, which I know are pretty dear to me. The 1st and 2nd would kill one a piece. Can't I have both of the things ? Why should I be choosing ? Alas...that's not the right question, as I know that with everyone there comes a time when he has to choose, take his decisions, the decisions which would shape his life, and I am on that crossroad and the time here is running out for me to announce my chosen path. I knew this would be difficult, but as I have always been all these years, I kept on believing that I would do the right things at the right moment. May be the time to choose isn't here right now, but for sure it is in striking distance. So the question which I should be asking is What do I want ? Coz I is the one which should matter to each individual the most. Should I be selfish and take a step which would upset everyone else, even though I don't want to cause pain to anyone. Or should I play safe, and be the mean guy which I am not ? Or should I just walk where there's no reason to fear and not take care of everyone else's feeling, not even mine ?

Life used to be simple....I complicated it.

Rahul